I had a weird feeling today.  I am not sure what came over me.  My classes started yesterday, but I was unable to participate in the message boards and introductions due to other obligations (i.e. sick kid, etc…) In addition, I have accumulated about 4 hours sleep in the last two days, so my mood is not as chipper as I would like it to be.  My wife is out of town for work all week, and I have to worry about household chores, the baby, my job, and now school.  My brain is officially toasted, but I digress.  

I got to work this morning and saw my course list.  I am taking three classes this time.  I think in previous terms (especially on days like today with my mental state the way it is) I might have looked at the start of the term with three classes staring me in the face and been appalled at the impending workload, keeping up with three different message boards, three seminars per week, and at least three assignments per week.  

I went into each virtual classroom this morning and did my introduction, contributed some of my wisdom to the postings of other students (many of whom I had been in classes with previously), and took a look at the assignments that are going to be due.  Then it hit me.  

Instead of shying away or just saying, “To heck with this”, I actually was embracing the process.  I have realized that this is it.  When I am done, this is indeed “it”.  This is the last chance to really push and do a good job at Kaplan.  My next school will probably have a different virtual environment, different requirements, and more.  This “life” I know as Kaplan will be gone in about 68 days.

For a moment, I felt like a childhood friend was moving away.  It felt like I had turned in my two-month notice at a job I love.  I felt like I wanted to do all the assignments right then and there.  It was just a moment where I wanted to take it all in.

Perhaps I will stop being nostalgic at some point and get down to real writing.   I know this will be a rigorous term and in a couple of weeks I’ll be wondering, “When is this going to end?”  But until then, I’ll just reminisce about my Kaplan experience.