Today was kind of rough for me.  I worked from home which was great but I just realized something about 5 minutes ago.  I’ve been sitting in the same chair in the same place since 7AM with the exception of a 30 minute break for lunch, an hour break for dinner and an hour to run errands.  I went from working almost 9 hours from the house right into doing my homework for the two courses at WNMU.  To tell you the absolute truth, I’m tired, fatigued actually.  I’m feeling that burnout feel I get usually right before I hit my stride.  I don’t know why it happens like that but whenever I start a new degree program after a long break at first I’m excited, everything is new and cool.  Then I start to feel overwhelmed and quickly like I’m burning out, then I just stick it out and the work becomes routine.  Almost to the point that I don’t even realize how much actual work I do in a day until I quit doing it.  When I graduated from Ashford it took a while to adjust to all the free time I suddenly had.  Almost like post partum depression took place or something, I just felt like there was this huge hole in my day to day activities, like there was nothing driving me, nothing to do, no goals to look forward to, etc. 

Well now I’m back in school and all I can think about is “why the heck am I doing this to myself?”  I mean seriously, it hasn’t exactly been a barrel of laughs.  The coursework itself is not hard, I mean let’s face it, I’m not exactly doing quantitative methods or anything here, but it there is an overwhelming amount of it.  I guess these professors feel like I have nothing else going on in my life except for their course.  I have something in the neighborhood now of 4 to 7 discussion questions PER CLASS plus quizzes and assignments.  It’s ridiculous.  It’s almost like if the material isn’t quantum physics or something they just want to bury you in paper.  Or in this case me.  Well at least I should be all wrapped up by Friday night.  Come on Friday!!!