This week's grades are in and I'm starting to wonder. I scored barely a 92 percent on my assignment and received and a 90 percent on my discussion. The killer is that I am dragging the bottom of the barrel on the class averages. There are only six of us in the whole class so I know that when I'm lower than the class average, I'm the butt end of things.
The really infuriating part is that I have not one single time been dinged on content, not once. I'm getting niggled on small grammatical errors but losing significant points because of it. I think I'm still making an "A" for the class but being dead last in this course is frankly starting to rub me the wrong way. That has not happened once in my academic career that I can think of and to be frank I'm getting concerned. Maybe it's just that I haven't figured out how this professor ticks or maybe it's just my time to drag the bottom or perhaps I'm getting fatigued or perhaps it's that I'm in a class with five other people who have survived what I have survived to get there and every single one of them is as sharp as a tack.
I have no idea, it's probably a combination of all those factors but I'm starting to worry. I'm a competitive type of guy and coming in last on anything does not sit well with me.
This is week six, the final week and the final paper will consist of 25 percent of my grade. Suffice to say striking out here will cost me my 4.0 GPA so the pressure is on. In the grand scheme of things losing a 4.0 GPA is not the end of the world, but to survive all of the quantitative hell that I have gone through, to work so hard to get those "A's" only to blow it on my electives would be a supreme disappointment to say the very least. Maybe I should have focused on Human Resources? Organizational Leadership really isn't even a profession necessarily even though I am passionate about leadership. I'm just very disappointed in myself right now and how my grades have been. Maybe I can pull it out just in the nick of time this week. Either way wish me luck.